Having grappled with symptoms of menopause for some time, I am now certain I’m sailing through it. Years ago, my friend said I was peri-menopausal when I began to experience bleeding, depression, hot flashes, uncertainty, doubt, and sometimes, boredom. I don’t really know if it’s been the years of having been the “default drive” at home or simply because of my hormones, but it sure has been a difficult time for me.
Of course, having read about it makes it more bearable. But there is still so much to learn—-and experience.
Mental and emotional changes
I was told to expect becoming irritable and temperamental due to hormonal changes. But I’ve always regarded myself as temperamental and irritable. I hate it when pedestrians don’t bother looking at the traffic lights and just cross the street, unmindful of vehicles trying to beat the red light. But I don’t like drivers who beat the red the light, don’t hesitate to use the opposite lane in anticipation of the green light, and those who don’t slow down when approaching intersections.
I was raised to respect the elderly, but I just can’t accord that respect to those who use their silver hair and wrinkles to get past long lines at the supermarket or drugstore! There are lanes for them and I think that’s where they should line up!
And children! I adore children. But I glare at the bullies and the brats, knit my brows (till they become a uni-brow) and shake my head--then I mutter “This one ought to be on a leash” loud enough for the parents to hear.
Salespersons don’t usually bother me. In fact, I’d become popular among those manning the phones on the TV shopping network because even when I’d refuse their irresistible offers, I’d ask why they’ve taken on such challenging jobs! However, those at our neighborhood supermarket really get on my nerves when they start doing their little dance, clapping and saying “At your service, YES!” when they can’t even tell me what’s on the chicken tray, where the pickle relish bottles are or when they don’t even know what seafood they sell! When confronting a situation like this, I always go to the customer service counter to ask them to quit teaching choreography and instead let their salespersons know what they’re selling.
My list could go on and on. So, I think I’ve always been irritable and temperamental. I remember waiting for changes I could actually feel when I turned thirteen and then again when I became thirty. Everything felt the same—-the same way I felt when I experienced the bleeding, depression, hot flashes, uncertainty, doubt, and utter boredom.
Having turned 53 recently, I am experiencing other physical symptoms that are difficult to ignore. Medical News Today enumerates some symptoms: irregular periods or menstrual pattern changes, lower fertility, vaginal dryness (which may be experienced along with other discomforts like itching), hot flashes or hot flushes (in UK), night sweats, disturbed sleep, urinary problems, moodiness, problems focusing and learning, fat build up in the abdomen, thinning hair and shrinking breasts!
Finding comfort in what seems constant
I continue to experience some of these and may experience more as I sail through this difficult milestone. I am thankful for the internet and the wealth of knowledge it offers. It lessens the anxiety that goes with experiencing something new.
Nevertheless, I realized that amid the constant change, some things really stay the same--or perhaps evolve so slowly, changes are hardly noticeable. We are more comfortable with what is known, what seems constant, even when there is real change.Disclaimer: The views in this blog are those of the blogger and do not necessarily reflect the views of ABS-CBN Corp.