TRANSCRIPT: What went wrong with Kris, Bistek

Posted at 06/29/2014 6:29 PM | Updated as of 06/30/2014 7:34 PM
Herbert Bautista and Kris Aquino (Composite image)

MANILA -- TV host Kris Aquino on Sunday finally opened up about her failed relationship with Quezon City Mayor Herbert Bautista.

Speaking on “The Buzz,” Aquino admitted she got hurt when she watched Bautista’s “Bandila” interview where he admitted that he no longer wants to get back with her.

Here is the full transcript of her statement:

"I tried to keep quiet. It was unfortunate na humina ang self-control ko on 'A&A' ('Aquino & Abunda Tonight) kasi tatlong buwan naman na kinaya ko talaga to keep quiet. Mahirap gawin 'yun when you have two daily talk shows and you’re back here on 'The Buzz.' Ironic nga na siya naman ang unang nagsalita when ako 'yung expected ng lahat na mag-overshare.

"I did keep quiet for one very human reason. I got hurt for that very same reason because I truly loved him.

"In a perfect world, the love you give the person you love will be the same type of love that he will give you. At magiging tama ang timing niyong dalawa na lahat ng mga mahal niyo, lahat ng mga taong mahalaga at may responsibilidad kayo sa kanila, handa na rin silang intindihin kayo.

"Perfect timing means 'yung mga naging parte ng nakaraan niyo, happy na kaya okay sa kanila na maging happy ka na rin.

"For me and James (Yap), kinasal kami, nagpa-annul kami. Malinaw ang closure namin and just a few months ago, finally nagkapatawaran kami.

"Bimb was very vocal in saying he did like HB because he made mama happy. Kahit seven years old lang si Bimb, sabi niya he just wants his mama to be happy. My two sons were ready to share me and my love. Tama ang timing sa side ko.

"Maybe when you fall in love and the man asks you to spend the rest of your life with him dahil hindi na kayo bata and marami na kayong napagdaanan sa kanya-kanyang buhay, nandoon kayo sa point na you feel you’re best friends and effortless to talk about work, to laugh together, to feel normal kapag magkausap kayo.

"When he asks you to spend your life with him, you do say yes kasi naniniwala ka that everything will fall into place because what you have, you will feel it was meant to be. You have faith in forever.

"For someone who came from heartbreak, that was so hard to believe in forever again. And you believed that he wasn’t going to play games. And you believed na meron ka ng lifetime companion.

"Sa trabaho niyong dalawa, mararamdaman niyo na oo posible pala na bumuo kayo ng samahan na hindi nakaasa sa mga pabor na pwedeng hingin at pabor na pwedeng ibigay. Hindi pera o posisyon ang nagpaka-attractive sa inyong dalawa kundi dahil you clicked. Nag-click ang ugali ninyo.

"As much as our jobs have given us our lifetime fulfillment, nakakita ka pa rin ng safe haven in each other. In fact, meron akong isang favorite memory. We went to Starbucks one Sunday. Nung nagbabayad kaming dalawa sa cashier, tinanong nung cashier ‘Do you want to split the bill?’ And we did. It was just all so normal. Parang napaka-regular naming tao kaya it felt so special.

"When unexpectedly he breaks up with you, you choose to see the breakup from his perspective because you do understand. You understand parental love because you love your sons so much too. And you’ll hide that heartbreak and you’ll just cry yourself to sleep every night. Sigurado ka na yung dalawang anak mo na nagshe-share ng kwarto mo tulog na para hindi nila makitang umiiyak ka.

"And then you forgive dahil kahit sinaktan ka, mahal na mahal mo pa rin siya and kahit paano, humanga ka pa rin sa kanya. Kasi personal niyang pinuntahan si Bimb, kinausap niya yung anak ko man to man. Simple siyang nag-sorry kay Bimb kasi alam niyang nakita ni Bimb na nasaktan ako at nakita ni Bimb na umiiyak ako. Somehow he knew that he should set an example for Bimb.

"As a gentleman, even when you do go through a breakup, boys should own up to it and say sorry. And that sons will always instinctively feel yung pain na nararamdaman ng nanay nila at gugustuhin na protektahan ang nanay. Because he loves his children so much, he knows na significant ang feelings ng mga bata.

"Somehow, you find the strength to rebuild the friendship. And when he tells you na babalik siya kapag naayos na ang lahat ng kailangan niyang ayusin, starting with fixing himself, because mahal mo siya, aasa ka. And every day magdadasal ka. Ang prayer mo, sana God it’s part of your will that we will be together in the future. Sana kami talaga ang meant for each other. And sana God bigyan mo siya ng lakas para maayos na niya ang sarili niya. And ako bigyan mo ako ng patience habang naghihintay ako na maging buo siya ulit.

"Tapos isang gabi makakanood ka sa 'Bandila,' and you hear him answer about you. Alam mo kasi live 'yun, hindi 'yun edited. And it wakes you up to reality na wala pala talagang somewhere down the road para sa inyo and you can’t stop crying because 'yung future na inakala mo, 'yung pinagdarasal mo, that future that kept you going, that dream just disappears.

"Dumating po siya sa buhay ko kasi kailangan ko maturuan ng true humility. Kinailangan ko kasi talagang maramdaman yung feeling na iwanan ka, ayawan ka. Masakit yun ah. Masakit ipamuka sa buong mundo na kahit mahal na mahal mo yung isang tao, sa isang live interview, aamin siya na ayaw na niya sayo, hindi ka niya babalikan and tatanggapin mo yun.

"Maybe I really did have to learn a lot. I needed to have strength of character and kailangan mangyari ito. Binigay ito ng Diyos kasi pine-prepare ako for a good future. Kasi kinailangan ko matuto.

"I had to learn that love endures, that love forgives, that love can actually be quiet, love can be selfless, it doesn’t blame no matter how much you’re hurting. Love doesn’t look for revenge. Love has no regrets.

"Tama na 'yung oo nasaktan ka pero ipapaalala mo sa sarili mo, the fact na minahal mo siya, napaligaya ka nung pagmamahal na naramdaman mong yun.

"I don’t want to make a mistake sa sasabihn ko kasi simple lang ang mensahe ko. True love graciously lets go.

"Sincere ito, para kay Mayor Herbert, from my heart, I really wish that kung anong magpapaligaya sa buhay mo, kung ano ang kukumpleto sa 'yo bilang tao, sana lahat ng 'yun mapunta talaga sa 'yo, sana makamit mo 'yun. Kasi sa 'yo ko natutunan 'yung kailangan ko talagang matutunan.

"All my life I was selfish. But in you, I proved to myself, capable pala ako magmahal unconditionally. Kahit hindi nga maganda ang naging ending natin, ito yung first time na nakapagsalita ako na hindi ako umiiyak, hindi ako galit. Grateful lang ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Someday, sana maging magkaibigan pa rin tayo."