Miriam Quiambao: I was suicidal

Posted at 04/15/14 3:15 PM

Miriam Quiambao and husband Ardy Roberto. File Photo.

MANILA – Former beauty queen Miriam Quiambao for the first time admitted that she once thought of committing suicide.

Speaking on ANC’s “Headstart” on Tuesday, Quiambao said it happened during the first year of her marriage to her first husband, Italian Claudio Rondinelli.

“I was suicidal a year after we got married. I was in Australia and I felt voices were talking to me, telling me to jump off a building. I was debating with it. If I kill myself, I would go to hell. And then there was voice that spoke in my heart that said ‘If you kill yourself, it’s not love. True enough, it was love that I was looking for,” she said.

Despite that, Quiambao said she still went home to her husband in Hong Kong, thinking she had to keep her wedding vows.

“He didn’t know how to handle my emotions and there I had to struggle with the depression and the suicidal thoughts,” she said.

Their separation happened only two years after their wedding.

“Later on, I was invited to come back and host for another channel. So I would come back and forth. In one of those trips, I was here and Claudio was in Hong Kong. I received a call from him. He said something like we are not the right person for each other and he just came from his lawyer and he wants a divorce,” she said.

Quiambao said she decided to let her husband go when she learned that he fell in love with another woman.

“In spite of this beautiful marriage on the surface, on the inside, I really wasn’t happy. It wasn’t what I expected. I didn’t feel like he totally understood what I am. We didn’t have emotional intimacy and even physical intimacy was a challenge. I stayed married because of my vows. But there, you could see talaga na it wasn’t the right. I felt like if I stayed in that relationship, my spirit was going to die,” she said.

New marriage

Despite what she went through, Quiambao said she is blessed that God gave her another man with whom she can spend the rest of her life.

“The long wait for the right one was worth it. I felt like I can’t trust myself in choosing the right man for me. I just know what I want. So I told God, ‘Can you help choose for me?’” she said.

Last March 25, Quiambao married Christian motivational speaker and author Roberto “Ardy” Roberto.

The wedding was held in Tagaytay and was attended by the couple’s family and close friends.

Quiambao, who won first runner-up in the Miss Universe 1999 pageant, said she developed feelings for Roberto, her fellow inspirational speaker, after he passed some of her “tests.”

“First date was on June 1, 2013. I answered him to be my boyfriend July 2. October 6 was the first proposal. Second proposal was on November 26. We started planning in January and got married March 25,” she said.

Just like Quiambao, Roberto was also formerly married but his wife passed away.