Journeys and destinations - Danton Remoto

Posted at 02/23/2010 12:37 AM | Updated as of 02/23/2010 12:37 AM

Exeunt is the third part of Carmen Guerrero Nakpil’s trilogy of memoirs. In stage direction, “exeunt” indicates that a character is about to leave the stage. And the sense of finality, of elegiac beauty, is found in this book.

Mrs. Nakpil’s two earlier books are titled Myself, Elsewhere and Legends & Adventures. The first brought back to us genteel Ermita before World War II, while the second showed the author’s colorful life from 1946 until the assassination of Ninoy Aquino in 1986. Both won the National Book Award from the Manila Critics Circle.

As befits a book called Exeunt, the last part of the trilogy is also the thinnest volume, like the books of Samuel Beckett, which became thinner and thinner as he became older. But the signature wit and wisdom are still there, as when she deftly answered questions for four hours from a dour Hong Kong immigration officer, who mistook her for the mistress of General Ver. Or when she recalls her meeting with the infamous Ben Abalos, former chair of the Comelec. This set piece sparkles, and is worth the price of the book.

“We were sitting having coffee at the (Hotel Intercon’s) Jeepney when in rushed this very flustered, slight, dark-skinned man to dump his political woes on Mayor Yabut. He was carrying several posters and charts which he showed the Mayor as evidence that he had been cheated in the recent election… He must have misheard something in my question (about my friend Narda Camacho) because he replied: ‘I have nothing to do with her. She’s too old and ugly for me to bother with her!’ I was stunned by his boorishness and replied angrily, ‘Well, then, you’re a cad! Saying offensive things about a woman who’s been helping you.’ Mayor Yabut disposed of Abalos… He stood up and gestured, addressing Abalos in peremptory Tagalog, ‘Umalis ka na. Go and take all your charts with you.’ When I watched Abalos, already the well-connected Comelec chairman, perjuring himself on the floor of the Senate over the Chinese ZTE scandal, I was not at all surprised.”

Well, well, well. Trust Mrs. Nakpil to remind us that divine justice does exist after all, in what Shakespeare called “our mortal coil."

And as in the earlier books, she gives us a ringside view of history, of how Cardinal Sin deftly maneuvered the Marcoses, and of how Defense Secretary Juan Ponce Enrile kept on blaming the Americans for the crown of leadership that did not sit on his head after the People Power Revolution of 1986. What is Mrs. Nakpil’s take on the event? Ever the nationalist, she digs deeper and shows us the roots of the problem.

“EDSA as revolutionary reform failed because, from its inception, it was tainted by foreign interests, and even its native elements were blighted by self-serving motives. EDSA crumbled from its impurities . . .”

Her health also takes center stage in this book. It took a turn for the worse after her two brothers’ deaths, and her tedious work at the Technology Resource Center. We all know this deep in our bones: as journalists and creative writers, we feel we are in a Procustean bed the moment we work in the strict confines of an administrative job in a government corporation. It is against, as what Mrs. Nakpil said, “my own free-wheeling and bohemian nature.”

But work she did, being a stickler for punctuality and trying to twist her face into a smile even if she wanted to gouge out the eyes of the politicians who were pressuring her to do this and that. Still, she wrote under the byline of Aurora Cruz (part of her real name), worked for the Marcoses to save her activist daughter Gemma and son-in-law Tonypet, and labored to push for micro-finance and solid-waste management projects at the TRC.

In the end, you can feel the hilarity and melancholy of old age in these well-polished lines.

“If you are an octogenarian Filipina like me who has never migrated, it is the present (and not the past) that is like a foreign country. . . Why is everyone dressed for the beach, or for winter in New York? Sandals and bikinis, or black tailored suits and pumps? Why is it increasingly difficult to tell men from women?… Which flying-saucer space ship beamed me to this never-never land? Why have all the Asians gone blond; my fellow Pinays pale and red-haired, macabre as death, and the Caucasians dressed like Africans?”

In the end, she calls old age “just a slow form of death.” As the clock ticks and time passes, she has begun to understand the nature of our compassionate God, the slippery mysteries of our Christian religion, and the importance of an all-sustaining peace. “I surprise myself by quoting to a distraught son, daughter or friend Teresa of Avila’s comforting lines which I learned when I was 9, ‘Nada te turbe. Nada te espante.’ Let nothing disturb or frighten you. Everything passes. God never changes. Solo Dios Basta. God alone suffices.”

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Apropos to Divine Justice

As a vodou practitioner, I would like to relay an experience by a fellow partitioner by the name of Kathy, re bad people doing bad things (paging Gloria Arroyo, et al!):

“Hi - I will share my experiences on Spirit summoning from African Traditional Religion view/experience.
Many, many years ago an uncle of mine had a burglar steal from his shop - he wanted to know the full story - as a typical African mind-set, consulted a witchdoctor who had ability to make you see what happened. He went with a policeman, and drank the potion - I recall him saying it was foul stuff - tasted like shit and piss and god knows what else. He had to watch a wall that had a large sheet of brown paper on it - and after some 15 minutes began to see images - and "saw" the robbery - he saw the thief - how they broke into his shop and entered, and what they stole, and how they left... When I heard that, I was dubious and thought it was a stretch.

"Many years later, a friend of mine would introduce me to the same - another witchdoctor who could make you see what was happening by drinking the potion - your Ancestors would show you - at the time I was on medication - the witchdoctor divined this and told me I cannot take the potion with my medicines and so could not see...

"As fate would have it - years after, another friend of mine - a grand Shaman - has the same abilities / medicinal plants and powers to summon your Ancestors to show you things - only done on rare occasion / as need be - not a regular practice since they have to also summon their own Ancestors and have them "join" with yours to reveal themselves.

"The first time I took that potion - I only drank it because I know - and trust - the person (witchdoctor) who administered it. It was so disgusting ... foul smelling and tasting stuff... I thought I was going to puke.

"Instead of a wall with brown paper - I was given a bowl of water to look into. Still dubious - I didn’t think anything was going to happen - after all - it seemed way too fantastic of something to actually happen. How wrong and ignorant I was.

"After some 15-20 minutes, I got sleepy - but remained fully conscious as I began to look at that bucket of water I was supposed to have visions in. Imagine my surprise when little waves started to appear... then bubbles formed at the sides... images of certain types of animals appeared - I was informed they are my Ancestors - they come as animals in case you don't know them and get a fright (which I would have).

"Then, people - images of people - started to come - I saw them clear, clear - and although I could not hear them, we telepathy communicated - I knew they were my Ancestors - some I recognized as people I knew in this life... they came and smiled and waved and greeted me... history also began to reveal itself. i saw the wrongs that my Ancestors also did to other people - and they wanted that acknowledged - and today they are OK with it... but wanted acknowledgement. I told my family about the wrongs that were done by their forefathers/mothers - and they agree it was so... but what is important is that we accept and acknowledge that today and know never to do the same ever again.

"What was most interesting is that my Ancestors who I knew in this life but died - when they came and greeted me - they looked the age that they were when they died. They showed me many things - dangerous things - enemies - what to know. One incident - they showed me a man - I did not know who he was, but I came to know him. I asked my Ancestors to show me my enemies and his once face was shown. Some months later I saw him in a boardroom where I was making a presentation - he attacked me verbally / putting me down for nearly 2 hours when I was invited to make a pitch- he tried to get me fired/ put down... I then recalled his face... I had seen it some 4 months prior in that bowl of water - and I knew - he most definitely was an enemy - but now I knew.

"Ancestor worship / reverence is a powerful tool - Brother Moloch et al are so very right when they saw "Reverence to your Ancestors"= because one thing is certain - even if your Ancestors did terrible or wrong things while on this earthly plane of existence - when they pass on, they *do* regret their wrongs and seek atonement in all forms - they try to make it right. By making contact with them, you learn this and you learn how they fight hard for you on other planes to make up for where they came short in human life.

"That drink - the African sort-of equivalent of Ayahuasca of sorts - is absolutely disgusting. Honestly - I cannot drink it more than 1 or 2 times a year. Really. No matter how powerful the need to see what my Ancestors can show me - that concoction is ..... terrible.”—Kathy"

Attention: Gloria Ampatuwad, et al!

NGIPIN KO MALAKI DAHIL SA CORRUPTION!


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